I started my current position in June, feeling enthusiastic and excited about the research and keen to collaborate with my new lab fellows as their approaches could really complement some of my existing work.
However five months down the track the micromanagement, dismissal of research and lack of any respect from the lab manager has caused me anxiety (to the point my leg was shaking constantly for 2 months, they went overseas-it stopped, they returned and so did the tremors) and depression, and the constant dismissal of my work, undermining, and other things has made it almost impossible to do my job.
I honestly don't know what to do, I emmigrated for this job, and I don't have the energy to search for another job, emmigrate again (this is already the 2nd time in a little over 1 year as the gurenteed funding for my first post-doc research got used up on a different project and I had no prospect of finding further funding for that position, and I decided to resign, plus there was the emmigration back home in between)and then start again, and I want to make this work.
The problem is my lab manager has wanted to do this project for about 5 years, and actually wants to do it themselves, they keep changing the aims, and coming up with dispirate components which they don't let me connect in what is the logical way to me (and won't provide alternatives). Whilst they were away I drafted a synthesis paper as a foundation to the research, to me it is a synthesis of new ideas and perspectives, yet my manager won't let me try to publish it and won't even read the abstract-but just dismisses it as a review (which it isn't) and won't consider it further.
I can't move forward with the project, because everytime I try to develop any concept or aspect it is quashed, or dismissed, or the aim is changed-normally without a thorough evaluation of what I've done.
I'm finding it increasingly hard to cope, and had to absent myself from a team meeting (even though the lab manager won't really allow team members to work togeather, and likes the projects isloated) last week because I could'nt take it.
How can I actually prevent this micromanagement, and get on with my work without resorting to formal channels? For the first time I can truely say (and have said) I hate my job, but only because I am not allowed to do it, I don't want to take a formal route if I can avoid it, and I don't have the energy to move and start yet again so I really want to make this work, but if it continues I think I am not too far from breakdown.
Advice from anyone who has witnessed, or experienced or avoided this sort of thing would be greatly appreciated